Sunday, January 15, 2017

Problems of a 14 year old

Hi, guys. I'm sorry for not having a proper intro, but my blog this time is a bit personal. This blog is just for blowing off some steam, so please don't make fun of my problems.

My life to others is perfect. I have a huge house, a big family that loves me, and lots of friends. But around a year ago, my life changed. My mom and my dad sat Maddie and I down. We were on a ski trip in Colorado, and the trip was supposed to be fun. But in the end, it turned out to be the worst week of my life. The night before was a wreck. Tissues littered the floor, and I was curled up on the bed with tears rolling down my cheeks. Mom and Dad were fighting again, and I was in the crossfire once more.

There was always a routine to this. Maddie leaves, I get yelled at for being in the room, and Mom and Dad have a fight. We all sat at the table, where I knew the words were coming. The three of us wanted to hide it from Maddie to keep the perfect family, but we just couldn't hide it anymore. I cried once more as the tears left Mom's mouth. I ran outside, away from the world, and away from the cruel reality. I found a bench and sat, crying more because I will never be able to have a perfect family again.

"We are having a divorce." The words rang in my head over and over. "We are having a divorce." I was so vulnerable. "We are having a divorce." Nothing matters anymore.

Months pass and so many things have changed. Dad moved out of the house to buy another one. Mom is usually gone studying up north. I have gained more responsibility and weight to hold. Maddie is still oblivious to the entire situation we have. I try to stay happy, but I can't. Because nothing is the same, and nor will it ever be the same.

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Progress on my Research

My topic on this research paper is the Scientific Revolution, and event during the 14th and 17th century. This topic caught my eye because of science itself. This subject is so captivating, and it's so hard to believe that science has brought humankind from chalkboards to iPhones. And to think, it all started with Nicolaus Copernicus arguing against Ptolemy's geocentric system.
So far my research is going fine.

My research is what scientifically important impacts made the Scientific Revolution so special. The problem is to find what impacts are scientifically important in my sources. One of my options is the keep looking, or to replace the useless source with a better one. Both options are extremely terrible options because I might be looking for nothing in the source. And I may not be able to find a good enough of a source in time for the flashcard deadline.

Sunday, December 11, 2016

The Progress in the Writing Center

My writing fellow and I worked on mostly embedding, which meant it took up half an hour. He showed me how to write up embedded sentences, so he was a big help. We also worked on how to make a conclusion, which was also a good idea. This was a good idea since I barely knew how to write an ending paragraph. I also lost a chunk of my points due to my other poor written conclusions in the past. It was nice though to have someone like him around. Him helping me with everything was great.

My progress was re-writing entire paragraphs and making them make sense. The I had to put sentences in the end of each paragraph to link my words to the thesis. My paper is now more like a C+ than a flat out F. I still hope to reach A level, though. That way I can assure myself that I can make sufficient literary analyses.

Saturday, December 10, 2016

What I believe in achieving

Sa'Veon:  Do you set your goals according to what you to want to achieve or according to what you think you are capable of achieving?

I think about what I want to achieve because I want to have high goals and become a better person. If I am a better person, I can be a role model for the next generation of freshman. People always look up to others but never have the courage to work up to that level. Most people would sulk about never being that person or being stuck as the person they are. So in order to break the cycle, I believe it is best for me and maybe others to start working towards bigger goals and achieve them.